needed discovery
of an inner work ethic
I just couldn't find it
blaming someone or something
would achieve nothing
attempting re-entry I may crash and burn
now working temporarily for agencies
living off weekly pay, just about getting by
saving for a flat, a place to rent
have put up with bad management
not sleeping on the desk because of tactical dumps
VDU denies rest to my eyes
tiredness doesn't come as a surprise
last night...on the piss
no headache yet, but I do feel sick
sick of regrouping, need to progress
move to london, be near the missus
in realising my goals
severn bridge isn't the only toll
fearing losing freedom
in the capital I'll be almost alone
student life in bristol suited me best
now my fate lies in the east
culture is not bowling or malls
multiplex cinema or drinking in chain bars
watered down weak beer makes me nauseous
searching for a borough with more than all this
one hundred a week is beyond my reach
can't afford an excess or a luxury
these limits are placed on me by me
didn't have to dropout, didn't have to leave
a demi
chemie
with half a degree
of sense I'd have stayed
my indecision was final
didn't hand in the work
now I'm drowning in debt
do I regret..?
doph 2003